Yanru
Sweet Sixteen
Interest: Photography, SS501, Kim Beom
Hobbies: Napping

You were spiritually present. Always



4/1'09 Annlyn Fangxian Jason Jayshii Meina Minyi Naomi Xinwei






People stepped into and out of my life,
and its those who stayed with me throughout my journey that matter.

Still in malaysia now.
Yet, my ideal (shall not use perfect) year 2010 has been spoilt.
Sigh.

Used vulgarities at strangers, ate so much in one day, slept throughout the whole day, stoned around bullying keshuan, doing absolutely NOTHING.
So now, I wonder if my life in malaysia is really worth my time.
I want my time here to be meaningful, worthy of memories, and wonderful.
Although I can spend time with my loved ones here, I can do nothing but wait.
Wait for their return from school and work.
While I do nothing.

Just like Golden hair boy in Boys Over Flowers.
He went Paris with his girlfriend. Only just to realise that all he could do was to wait for her return from work everyday and do nothing.

He gave it up.
Am I to do that too?
Am I to finally accept the fact that I am not fated to be here in malaysia?
Accept the fact that I am only to miss malaysia, to think about wonderful memories in malaysia?

My mum told me to change my nationality. To be a Singaporean.
To some, its no big deal. But to me, it is.
To me, it is like annoucing that you want to have nothing to do with malaysia anymore.
I do not know.

I want to be in malaysia.
They say the choices are made by man.
And it is the choices made by man that determine who they are.

Yet sometimes, we do not have a choice.
I didn't choose to be born in Singapore.
I didn't choose to live in Singapore.
I didn't choose not to be in Malaysia.

Some may think that I am ridiculous, to be bothered by nationalities.
But that's me.
People have different things that matter to them in life.
Some are money, others are relationships.
Some don't give a damn about their studies, some treat it as if its their life.

Tired.



And the saddest part of all this,
I am half-hoping that 9th jan can come quickly.
To return to my life. In Singapore.
























































KIM BEOM.




Toot right?
He's like not even the main character?
But I ended up wanting to watch him and the another girl. (!!!)
Sigh.


Anyway, I just realised that life here is really boring,
BUT I LOVE IT LOADS!!!
Mad I tell you.


Okay, beginning to sound like some little kid blogging.
But I do not have any pictures as the computers here cannot put SD card in.
Sad.






Many things to express, yet so difficult to do so.


Yes, I am still in malaysia if you guys are wondering.



Extending my stay until January next year, (unless my mum comes back to take me back to Singapore) =.="



Utterly retarded. (ZZZ)

And her reason for doing that?

To shut my mouth. Yes, because I love shouting, shooting back at my supposed "elders"-whom I must mention are really disrespectful to their own elders in the first place.



I always wonder, why do people hate their parents so much? When the parent is so good to them, who really loves them and cares about them?
Parents, who, in my own opinion, are really respectable.



Yes, I know someone who is just like that.
Maybe worse.
Calling her own mother crazy, yelling back at her own mother, and even throwing out her mother's items.
The most controversial part is that, though she made it so clear to us that she hates her mother, she still comes over to her mother's house.

(To make everyone uneasy)



I can't stand it. Really can't.
She yells at people just because she likes to.
She invites people over for dinner and yelled at them.
Excuse me? Why are you yelling at your own guests? What is wrong with you?
=.="





Some people just think that they know everything.
I know someone whose father is a bastard (seriously), who beats up his own children.
When that somebody scolds his/her father on his/her blog, he/she got stupid comments like,

"You are so rude"
"You don't respect even your own father"

Hello?!
Respect somebody who beats their own children up?!


WHAT IS THIS.


Go and try to respect somebody who beats you up.
Respect someone who gambles their money away and implicate their children.
Go on, respect them.

Why should we respect our elders because they are older than us?
Why is it that the reason that parents give their children as to why they should respect their elders is because they are older?

Why isn't the reason something like because the elders have done something respectable and great or even simply kind?
Does age really matter so much?

Respect, in my opinion, should not be mixed with manners.
When we greet someone just because they are elders it's manners.
Not respect.


Respect elders because they have done something good or something that deserves respect from their juniors.


If my mom ever tries to tell me like uncle is older than you so you should respect him, I swear I will hit the roof.

ROAR.



Okay, moving on.

My life now in Malaysia is really fun and sad at the same time.
Many mixed emotions but then again, if I am always happy here, it would not have been home for me but just a holiday destination right?

Love it here.
It's hot, humid, extremely dirty, slow-paced, boring, but yet I love it.
So much.

Wish I can stay here longer but nope. Got to go back.
Not even coming back for Chinese new year.
(Because bro is entering his NS in February and can't make it for CNY)
Argh.


Okay, kind of tired right now. My eyes are literally burning.
I watched finish the whole of boys over flowers...
In 1.5 days' time!!! Weeee~~~
Ownage, HAHAHAHAHA.




Hope, is always present.





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This post contains quite abit of photos.
Inclusive of ugly pictures of the owner as well.
Please do not choke, vomit, faint, or sadly die from shock caused by photos.



LOL



Okay, short story, went out with trash today! (:
Last outing before I go back to Malaysia.



So I saw xinwei's blog and was inspired to try camwhoring.
Yes, cause I suck at that wahahaha.

I still do.



So we actually intended to go bugis?
We did go, to find her job (which she got), and then stone at iluma.
Haha.


On a whim, we decided to go city hall.
And we did!
And bought my lens filter plus battery!
The sales person there (challenger), was so cute. Okay, retarded.
Gave me discount and asked me why I keep laughing.
And fangxian replied, cause you very funny.
And he was distressed!!! Haha.



Headed to Esplanade after that on a whim as well, and took a road that we never took before.

Took chain shots and a few photos and yes, we went to the Singapore flyer on yet another whim!
Super funny. And last minute.


We were like thinking maybe we can get one carriage to ourselves since its friday.
But to our horror, there was a long long queue.
(We ended up praying that we won't get squished)
Sigh.



And the end result?




SUCKS.
Like seriously cannnnnnn. ):
Waste $$$ only. Sigh.




After that sat by the river and wondered why are we looking at a drain. Hmmm.


We saw a group of people having glow-in-the-darks.
Being typical kay-pos, we went to see.
It was like all light sticks. -.-"


Fangxian, so you guys are selling these light sticks?

Guys, (looking shocked and super amused), Errr, NO. LOL. Sorry.


(They continued snickering at us, sigh)



Walked back to esplanade and stoned on the couch for a while.

Trained back and trash was totally shocked by a piece of model news. Wahahaha.


Photos:





High court I guess?





Cool. I think this was abandoned.












I wanna stand on top of the world,
I wanna be the top in the world!


Ultimate sian-ness.
Okay, I have loads of things to do now, since I am meeting trash in like a couple of hours.
*exhausted*

Can't wait to get my camera stuffs later!!!
And handphone stuffs too!

Oh, I forgot to mention that yesterday, Hoosh, val and me saw this guy looking suspiciously like a mugger.
Sleeveless shirt without any muscles on his arms.
Okay, that comment was kind of bad, so I am just kidding!

Ah-nan is back in singapore, but I won't be able to meet her before I go back to malaysia! ):
Blop too ):

Slept at 2:24a.m. today(-.-), and is awake today at 10 to blog!
Haha.
Okay, lazy to type more words.




I realise that this picture is actually very nice.
But I thought it was ugly until I put it as my display picture.








Photo with Esther (:

Since her sister is sooooo *ahem* camera shy, I only managed to take like what, 2 photos with her?!
*&^%$#@!

Okay, just joking. I refrain from swearing.


Okay, presenting...

MY FAILED SHOT AT CAMWHORING.



Don't tell me it sucks. I know it does.
I always fail at this kind of thing.



Random pics from outings!!!
Esplanade ((:



Chain shot.
We keep doing this. HAHAHAHA.
Losers.






Blop's scary fingers.
So white.




I like the shadow ((:







Friends are loves~~~



In case anyone out there wonders about the previous act cute sentence, I simply wish to express my feelings towards my friends.


I really do appreciate them, and yes, I do love them.

But that does not mean I am some kind of pushover which you can step all over and then laugh.
No, it really doesn't mean that.

My point is, sometimes, friends do take advantage of friends.
Which I really dislike. (Yes I do)

I am really trying to tolerate but its tough. Really tough.
I swear my eyebrow muscles are twitching, double time.
Why must they be like that? No idea.

Okay, moving on to my absolutely boring life.
I, for one, have yet to go shopping/movie (sudden craving man)/photoshoot/play for a long time.
I was supposed to join Jiale and Jane out for cruise this saturday, but my mum decided to go back to malaysia on saturday so what can I do right.
Supposed to go far east today but thanks to a certain someone and something, I am not going too.
That's not to mention the baking session, supposedly to be on before I go back to malaysia.
Totally not going to make it one.

Maybe one day, I shall be like those girls -whenever go out with friends take tons of photos.
I think that seriously is more interesting. Hahahaha.


Malaysia photos:
(Taken by my Nikon compact so quality not as good as Canon)




Random cracks on the floor





Bicycle wheel!
Super long never ride a bicycle already.
Later I forget then malu.





Evening sky (which my mum hates )






Like this.



I know this is super random, but I like my phone now.
BECAUSE VALERIE HAD IMPORTED IT OVER TO SINGAPORE FOR $700 PLUS PLUS WHILE I GOT IT FOR FREEEEEEEEE!!!!

Beat that girl.

Oh, and she asked me to play some lame game on her iPod, which I lost much to her delight, and broke several bones in my fingers. Haha. Just kidding.


That's all for now!



The roads that we take are not always smooth,
just as the people we meet on our way are never perfect.

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Got a new phone today. SUCKS.
This is the 6th year running that I WANTED a clam phone, but DIDN'T GET IT.
ROAR.

Yes. What happened?
I wanted sony ericsson t707, (swear I wanted this the moment my nokia one went crazy), but THE SHOPS TOLD US IT SUCKS AND THERFORE THEY DO NOT HAVE IT.

CRAP. I. SWEAR.
End product? Got a phone (which I did not even hear of, sigh) which is Nokia (again...) 5800.
And the worst part was, I was apparently depressed at the idea of getting a non-clam phone that I did not check how it looked like.
I simply took the one that is NOT red (I dislike red, pink, orange etc...),
which, to my horror, was horrible.

*&^%$#@! I tell you.
So now I am stuck with a phone that is ugly, not my type for 2 years!!!


WHAT IS THIS!!!
(going crazy I swear)


But, I am not about to whine to my parents for another, so ya.
I shall whine on my blog. Heehee.
Since I doubt many people would come to in the first place.


Oh, the horror of today.


Nevermind, passing that, uploaded pictures again! So happy.




East Coast trip with the girls.



Jiale. Looks cool right!!!! Hahaha.





The sea.
(I was on foot that day while the others were roller-blading. I was sweating like a cow)





The sand!!!





Happy girls, with Jiale and I cut off.
Hmmm, must be difficult to hold such a big camera.


That's all for today!!!

And I am still miffed. Sigh.




Weekend today!!!
Didn't go out aywhere as I have to teach tuition. Hmmm.


Should I go out tomorrow? Kind of bored now.
Only feel like going around taking nice photos, but no one to go with since Blop is away!
(And I don't want to look like some emo kid going around alone ZZZ)


Looking forward to next week! Exactly one week from today I will be going back to Malaysia!!!
So I can take many many!!! Hahahaha. (-.-)


Orchard photos when I went out with trash! Heehee





Failed shot of an emo stairway.
Too many people going up and down so I cannot sit there until I find good angle.
Sigh, making excuses for my lousy skills.




I really hate taking night scenes without a tripod.
So shaky.



Trash!
Look at her hair!!! Super windy.
We were like at the twelfth or eleventh floor. (Orchard central's roof garden)
Love it!!!


Okay, time to end this post.
I am cooking in Pet Society. Hahaha.
I think Facebook must be making loads and loads of money now.

Byes!



Early post today! (:


Going to run later, cause I have too much fats. Heehee.
My muscles are giving like putty.

Hope that my C.S can faster level up!!!
Can't wait. Haha.


Some picts from esplanade trip!



(Love this)





Our legs. Mine are full of plasters. Sigh





Bloppy took me!





I like this snoopy. So lazy like me (: